Not even you

I don't trust anyone who thinks they have the authority to enforce compliance to their way of life

Deep Verse

1 Corinthians 10


12 Therefore let anyone who thinks that he stands take heed lest he fall.
13 No temptation has overtaken you that is not common to man. God is faithful, and he will not let you be tempted beyond your ability, but with the temptation he will also provide the way of escape, that you may be able to endure it.


23 “All things are lawful,” but not all things are helpful. “All things are lawful,” but not all things build up.
24 Let no one seek his own good, but the good of his neighbor.
25 Eat whatever is sold in the meat market without raising any question on the ground of conscience.
26 For “the earth is the Lord's, and the fullness thereof.”
27 If one of the unbelievers invites you to dinner and you are disposed to go, eat whatever is set before you without raising any question on the ground of conscience.
28 But if someone says to you, “This has been offered in sacrifice,” then do not eat it, for the sake of the one who informed you, and for the sake of conscience—
29 I do not mean your conscience, but his. For why should my liberty be determined by someone else's conscience?
30 If I partake with thankfulness, why am I denounced because of that for which I give thanks?

31 So, whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God.
32 Give no offense to Jews or to Greeks or to the church of God,
33 just as I try to please everyone in everything I do, not seeking my own advantage, but that of many, that they may be saved.

Commie Bastards

Acts 4
³²All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, but they shared everything they had. 
With great power the apostles continued to testify to the resurrection of the Lord Jesus, and much grace was upon them all. 
There were no needy persons among them. For from time to time those who owned lands or houses sold them, brought the money from the sales 
and put it at the apostles' feet, and it was distributed to anyone as he had need.

Deep Thought

‎"We are all born as animals and live the life that animals live: we sleep, eat, reproduce, and fight. There is, however, another order of living, which the animals do not know, that of awe before the mystery of being, the mysterium tremendum et fascinans, that can be the root and branch of the spiritual sense of one’s days. That is the birth – the Virgin Birth – in the heart of a properly human, spiritual life."
- Joseph Campbell, Thou Art That, p. 29

Deep Thought

When religion meets politics, it all amounts to a denial of autonomy.
The left would want to make you do what you do not want to do.
The right would want to make you stop doing what you want to do.

Deep Horoscope

The coming year will be a good time for you to consider investigating the Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster. Devotees of this religion call themselves Pastafarians. Their main dogma is the wisdom of rejecting all dogma. Having such a light-hearted approach to spiritual matters would be quite healthy for you to experiment with. For extra credit, you could draw inspiration from a church member named Niko Alm. He convinced authorities to allow him to wear a pasta strainer on his head for his driver's license photo. Having a jaunty approach to official requirements and formal necessities will also serve you well.

scary little thing called love

I believe that in order to truly love someone, you must understand them.
Many times your heart leads, then love seems to be blind, ineffective, selfish even.
you have no idea if you are happy, if they are happy.
it's scary feeling like you're on a limb that could break any second.
You already fell without even expecting it.
You may get over it but your heart is still wounded. There's still a scar. Making it tougher. Making you guarded.

Trust

Risk management
Accept the risk only when the benefit outweighs the cost
when Love feels like a risk
Anticipate and manage risks by planning
when you don't have enough information to make a healthy decision
make risk decisions at the right level
love takes time
accept no unnecessary risks.
love does not fear.

But I realize I've been using the ORM wrong.
You're supposed to
Identify the hazard
Assess the hazard
Make risk decisions
Implement controls
Supervise

I haven't been implementing controls
I just decide that it's not worth the risk and pass it by
Or I only give what I'm willing to lose.

So what is the benefit
If there can be friendship and a heart protected.
When you love but are afraid to say it.
When I have to change my thinking from love to friend.
when love isn't something I can get rid of so easily. Ignore it, stifle it. Let it die.
What I have to tell myself.
I can be a friend. A friend who loves, supports, helps,
one who doesn't need love in return
I think a relationship is secure, there's a commitment.
What's the difference between a lover and a friend?
Is it just the physical intimacy? Is it a vulnerability?
You can be in love and still be friends. It's a bit of torture if one is not mature enough; but possible.

I feel like I'm an oddity. It's hard for me to relate to people and feel like I'm understood. Very important to me. Otherwise. It's the loneliest feeling, not being understood. This loneliness sits in your gut when you're alone or when you're in a crowd. It's worse in the crowd. It's worst in love.
I hate being confused and this is the most confusing and frustrating thing I've dealt with in a long time.

I'm in love and I'm uncomfortable with those feelings
I'm in love and it scares me
When my mind is telling me that it's not going to work and my heart is telling me that it doesn't matter, just do it.
There's no voice of hope. Nothing saying that it will work out.
Maybe that's my insecurities or maybe it's intuition. Maybe a little of both.
I wish i was able to trust someone with my heart

Word of the Day

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Noun

A person who doesn't care about an issue that doesn't affect them.

"as long as I'm fed, I don't care if poor people eat. They need to learn how to provide for themselves. If they can't, that's just evolution at work."

What do you call this person...besides asshole?

Selfish or indifferent doesn't quite hit it.

They have compassion; but only for their causes. Everyone else be damned.

Irreverent

It's why I ask people not to take me seriously
I'm grossly irreverent
I have little to no respect for anything
Severely jaded
I don't identify with anything or anyone

I don't have any real religious or political affiliation

I'm a libertarian on paper
When I talk to other libertarians or read their writings, I don't want to have anything to do with them


In politics and religion, sarcasm rules
It's like I'm the political (and economic) atheists telling everyone they're deluded.

The only things I want is freedom
but know that it's hard to achieve.
Like happiness
no one can give it to you
It's a choice you make

But we're too brainwashed to realize that we enslave ourselves

I realize that people will defend their cause and become delusional about it.  Viewing the opposing side as ignorant, dangerous

How do you really change minds?
Convincing others that your way is better for them...

If you find a way of life that works for you, meets your needs, you should be free to live that life.
You can advocate for it; but, don't force others to follow it.
Be respectful of the fact that everyone else doesn't want to follow it.

I distrust anyone who thinks they have a way of life that will work for all people.

Class Warfare

I've always thought that underneath it all, America's foundation was built on class.

noun
the system of ordering a society in which people are divided into sets based on perceived social or economic status:

In America, the foundation of class is wealth

What masks it all is that the American elite decided who was going to be in what class.
They had to, to ensure they keep their power

Duh enough, wealthy, white, male, land owners end up in the upper class

and Everyone else ends up in the lower class empires

The government creates this thing called the middle class.

This is where our land of opportunity lives.

Every now and then, the elite allow women and other minorities into their fold. Because it really isn't about racism or sexism or whatever -ism.

It's about power. It's about empires.

Empires came into being by creating something people felt they could not live without.

Dan Snyder makes the bottom of the Forbes 400 list at

1.05 Billion Washington Redskins

Oddly enough

the black female on the list

Oprah Winfrey at

2.7 billion Harpo Productions

The next wealthiest black person

Tiger woods at 600 million

42 of the 400 are women

We must realize that America was not a clean slate

There were powers that transfered and continued

Made decisions and molded the course of America

Any economic

Bigot

Word of the day

noun
a person who is intolerant of any ideas other than his or her own, esp on religion, politics, or race

New Oxford American Dictionary

bigotry
1670s, from Fr. bigoterie "sanctimoniousness," from bigot (see bigot).
bigoted
1640s, from bigot (q.v.).
bigot (n.)
1590s, "sanctimonious person, religious hypocrite," from Fr. bigot (12c.), of unknown origin. Earliest French use of the word is as the name of a people apparently in southern Gaul, which led to the now-doubtful, on phonetic grounds, theory that the word comes from Visigothus. The typical use in Old French seems to have been as a derogatory nickname for Normans, the old theory (not universally accepted) being that it springs from their frequent use of the Germanic oath bi God. But OED dismisses in a three-exclamation-mark fury one fanciful version of the "by god" theory as "absurdly incongruous with facts." At the end, not much is left standing except Spanish bigote "mustache," which also has been proposed but not explained, and the chief virtue of which as a source seems to be there is no evidence for or against it.

In support of the "by God" theory, as a surname Bigott, Bygott are attested in Normandy and in England from the 11c., and French name etymology sources (e.g. Dauzat) explain it as a derogatory name applied by the French to the Normans and representing "by god." The English were known as goddamns 200 years later in Joan of Arc's France, and during World War I Americans serving in France were said to be known as les sommobiches (see also son of a bitch). But the sense development in bigot is difficult to explain. According to Donkin, the modern use first appears in French 16c. This and the earliest English sense, "religious hypocrite," especially a female one, might have been influenced by beguine and the words that cluster around it. Sense extended 1680s to other than religious opinions.

Deep Horoscope

In her memoir Blood, Bones & Butter: The Inadvertent Education of a Reluctant Chef,Gabrielle Hamilton suggests my horoscopes were helpful to her as she followed her dream to create her New York City restaurant, Prune. "I killed roaches, poisoned their nests, trapped rats, stuffed their little holes with steel wool and glass shards," she wrote, "while my girlfriend . . . walked through the place 'purifying' it with a burning sage smudge stick and read me my Rob Brezsny horoscopes in support." I would love to be of similar service to you in the coming months, Gemini, as you cleanse whatever needs to be cleansed in preparation for your next big breakthrough. Let the fumigation, purgation, and expiation begin!
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Deep Thought

He is truly a Fool who trust's his :
1. Soul to a Preacher !
2. Health to a Doctor !
3. Right's to a Lawyer !
4. Money to a Banker !
6. Information from a news channel !
7. History from a school system !
8. Education from a University !
9. Security from a police force !
10. Freedom from a government !
11. Choices to a Politician !

Learn these skills for yourself!!!

Hippocrates maybe

Deep Horoscope

I'm not an either-or type of person. I don't think that there are just two sides of every story and that you have to align yourself with one or the other. That's one reason why, as an America voter, I reject the idea that I must either sympathize with the goals of the Democratic Party or the Republican Party. It's also why I'm bored by the trumped-up squabble between the atheists and the fundamentalist Christians, and the predictable arguments between dogmatic cynics and fanatical optimists. I urge you to try my approach in the coming weeks, Gemini. Find a third way between any two sides that tend to divide the world into Us against Them.

Whether it's your time to ferment in the shadows or sing in the sun, fresh power to transform yourself is on the way. Life always delivers the creative energy you need to change into the new thing you must become.*

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In every autobiography and biography ever written, the author imaginatively strings together selectively chosen details to conjure up artificially coherent narratives rather than depicting the crazy-quilt ambiguity that actually characterizes everyone's journey.

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Deep Thought

Americans always tend to do the right thing
after having exhausted every other alternative
Churchill

Emperor of the U.S.A: justice

In My Empire
People would solve disputes at the lowest level possible (starting directly with the people who are in disagreement), and if necessary, follow an appeals process all the way to the supreme court. The right to trial by jury will be observed

Justice system will be reparative. All non-violent criminals are released from prison and made to atone for their crime.

Grassroots investments

A friend, or any person in your community, wants to start a business. They know what they need to get it started
They don't have the capital. So they go to people in the community and ask for investments.
Face to face
Investor says they will give so much; what they get in return can be negotiated
Maybe they just want their money back
Maybe they want it back with interest
Maybe they want a portion of the profits
Maybe they want a say in decisions

No matter what the agreement, there would be no middle man, no bank or investment agency you have to go through. No imaginary digital money.

Deep Horoscope

Researchers at the University of Oregon claim that in certain circumstances, they can make water flow uphill. I'm not qualified to evaluate their evidence, but I do know that in the coming week you will have the power to accomplish the metaphorical equivalent of what they say they did. Don't squander this magic on trivial matters, please, Gemini. Use it to facilitate a transformation that's important to your long-term well-being.


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Sexuality: Indifferent

I understand that we don't like labels; but labels happen. If I'm gonna be labeled, it's gonna be on my own terms. I've gone from straight to bisexual to lesbian back to bisexual and now I just don't care.

I joke that I'm equal opportunity. It's pretty much true; I am "committed to a policy of providing sexual opportunities to people regardless of economic or social status and will not discriminate on the basis of race, color, ethnic origin, national origin, creed, religion, political belief, sex, sexual orientation, age, veteran status, or physical or mental disability." (modified from the University of Kentucky website)


Problem is, I'm not hiring.
It's hard to admit; but, I am really weary of people. Especially on an intimate level.
I've never met a person I couldn't live without.  I usually get tired of people after a while.
My oxytocin works; but I've never met anyone who was worth the highs and lows.

 I've rarely seen a successful relationship.
 It's gotten to the point where I don't see many benefits in getting involved with another person.

Or maybe it is a low self esteem/high social anxiety issue.
I'm not anywhere close to a model. I know it will take a considerable effort on my part to get a person and maintain a relationship. I just don't have the desire or attention span.

As far as gender is concerned...
I don't have the tolerance for men or the attention span for women.

People seem to always test your boundaries. Men to see what they can get away with, women to see how far you will go for them

Men do things just to see if they can get away with it
and women need to be the center of someone's world. And if that's not you, she'll find another sucker.

So now I identify as Indifferent.

And if anyone asks, my response is, "are you offering or do you know someone? If not, it's none of your business."

Thank God I'm ambidextrous.

Community service to forgive loan

I talked to someone who had a $80,000 student loan.
got a MBA in computer stuff

Sucks to have to pay all that back.
But what if you could work it off?

20 hours a week
at $10 an hour
you could pay off $80,000 in 8 years.



I've heard about people wanting their student loans forgiven.
I think the interest should be forgiven.
I think they should stop charging fees if a person can't pay on time.

I think a person should do community service work to pay off their loans

Tithe

Devarim - Deuteronomy
14

22 Thou shalt surely tithe all the increase of thy seed, that which is brought forth in the field year by year.

23 And thou shalt eat before HaShem thy G-d, in the place which He shall choose to cause His name to dwell there, the tithe of thy corn, of thy wine, and of thine oil, and the firstlings of thy herd and of thy flock; that thou mayest learn to fear HaShem thy G-d always.

24 And if the way be too long for thee, so that thou art not able to carry it, because the place is too far from thee, which HaShem thy G-d shall choose to set His name there, when HaShem thy G-d shall bless thee;

25 then shalt thou turn it into money, and bind up the money in thy hand, and shalt go unto the place which HaShem thy G-d shall choose.

26 And thou shalt bestow the money for whatsoever thy soul desireth, for oxen, or for sheep, or for wine, or for strong drink, or for whatsoever thy soul asketh of thee; and thou shalt eat there before HaShem thy G-d, and thou shalt rejoice, thou and thy household.

27 And the Levite that is within thy gates, thou shalt not forsake him; for he hath no portion nor inheritance with thee.

28 At the end of every three years, even in the same year, thou shalt bring forth all the tithe of thine increase, and shall lay it up within thy gates.

29 And the Levite, because he hath no portion nor inheritance with thee, and the stranger, and the fatherless, and the widow, that are within thy gates, shall come, and shall eat and be satisfied; that HaShem thy G-d may bless thee in all the work of thy hand which thou doest.

Devarim - Deuteronomy
Chapter 24

19 When thou reapest thy harvest in thy field, and hast forgot a sheaf in the field, thou shalt not go back to fetch it; it shall be for the stranger, for the fatherless, and for the widow; that HaShem thy G-d may bless thee in all the work of thy hands.

20 When thou beatest thine olive-tree, thou shalt not go over the boughs again; it shall be for the stranger, for the fatherless, and for the widow.

21 When thou gatherest the grapes of thy vineyard, thou shalt not glean it after thee; it shall be for the stranger, for the fatherless, and for the widow.

22 And thou shalt remember that thou wast a bondman in the land of Egypt; therefore I command thee to do this thing.


Devarim - Deuteronomy
Chapter 26

1 And it shall be, when thou art come in unto the land which HaShem thy G-d giveth thee for an inheritance, and dost possess it, and dwell therein;

2 that thou shalt take of the first of all the fruit of the ground, which thou shalt bring in from thy land that HaShem thy G-d giveth thee; and thou shalt put it in a basket and shalt go unto the place which HaShem thy G-d shall choose to cause His name to dwell there.

3 And thou shalt come unto the priest that shall be in those days, and say unto him: 'I profess this day unto HaShem thy G-d, that I am come unto the land which HaShem swore unto our fathers to give us.'

4 And the priest shall take the basket out of thy hand, and set it down before the altar of HaShem thy G-d.

5 And thou shalt speak and say before HaShem thy G-d: 'A wandering Aramean was my father, and he went down into Egypt, and sojourned there, few in number; and he became there a nation, great, mighty, and populous.

6 And the Egyptians dealt ill with us, and afflicted us, and laid upon us hard bondage.

7 And we cried unto HaShem, the G-d of our fathers, and HaShem heard our voice, and saw our affliction, and our toil, and our oppression.

8 And HaShem brought us forth out of Egypt with a mighty hand, and with an outstretched arm, and with great terribleness, and with signs, and with wonders.

9 And He hath brought us into this place, and hath given us this land, a land flowing with milk and honey.

10 And now, behold, I have brought the first of the fruit of the land, which Thou, O HaShem, hast given me.' And thou shalt set it down before HaShem thy G-d, and worship before HaShem thy G-d.

11 And thou shalt rejoice in all the good which HaShem thy G-d hath given unto thee, and unto thy house, thou, and the Levite, and the stranger that is in the midst of thee.

12 When thou hast made an end of tithing all the tithe of thine increase in the third year, which is the year of tithing, and hast given it unto the Levite, to the stranger, to the fatherless, and to the widow, that they may eat within thy gates, and be satisfied,

13 then thou shalt say before HaShem thy G-d: 'I have put away the hallowed things out of my house, and also have given them unto the Levite, and unto the stranger, to the fatherless, and to the widow, according to all Thy commandment which Thou hast commanded me; I have not transgressed any of Thy commandments, neither have I forgotten them.

Shemot - Exodus
Chapter 23

10 And six years thou shalt sow thy land, and gather in the increase thereof;

11 but the seventh year thou shalt let it rest and lie fallow, that the poor of thy people may eat; and what they leave the beast of the field shall eat. In like manner thou shalt deal with thy vineyard, and with thy oliveyard.


As I read it, what was really happening.
The people would store a tenth of their produce with the levites. The levites would give a tenth of that (1%) to the priests. Every three years that tithe would be brought out so that the poor could eat
So tithe is charity
Now It's something completely different
If churches were true to tradition, people would put their money in the collection plate
1% of that would go directly to the church and the rest would be used for charity.

I'd like to see a resurgence of tithing  We have to think of an effective way to enact it in our current society.  Every business and person gives 10% of their product, services, or labour freely to the poor.  Sounds easy enough.

http://www.jewishvirtuallibrary.org/

An average day

Lets start by saying that a person gets 8 hours of sleep a night.
Then they work 4/8/10/12 hours in a day
Then they work on their fitness for 30 minutes to 1 hour
Take an evening meal for 30 minutes to 1 hour
Some have a spiritual or calming ritual for 30 minutes to 1 hour

How much do you have?
13/17/19/21 hours spent
3/5/7/11 hours left

You know what doesn't make sense? Dating

Dating is completely outside of my realm of human interaction
It takes me a while to even start talking to people I don't know
Then, I have to have regular, constant interactions with them
Like, school or work.

I'm open to something in the future;
but, I have to spend a considerable amount of time getting used to someone else's presence.
I have to observe people before I engage with them.
Or sometimes I can quickly come to the conclusion that I don't care what you think.

Tried it. Didn't like it
And I don't have to try things over and over to get that they don't work for me
It seems so ass backwards or unnecessarily accelerated
Something is wrong with the timeline
There are phases to letting someone in
Levels of trust
takes a long time to develop trust
the kind of trust where I know a person is not going to use me against me
Seems like you skip a whole lot or go through them too quickly for my taste
I'd rather just enjoy an experience without all the assumptions and expectations.

I've never met a person that I needed or wanted anything from.
I've never met a person I couldn't do without.
And frankly, the idea of someone having any sort of influence over my life is unsettling


Then there's the sex. Fucks everything up to a certain degree.
Certain things that need to be seen get cloudy. Certain boundaries get crossed.

I need to have a relationship that is rooted in a friendship
Don't expect me to put any effort into it.

Deep Horoscope

One of my Gemini acquaintances, Tara, has been playing a slow-moving game of tag with three friends since they were all in second grade together. They're 27 years old now, and still live in the same city. Currently, Tara is "It," and has been so for quite some time. But she confided in me that she plans to make a move this week. She says she'll sneak up on one of the other players during his lunch break at work, tag him, and run away before he can tag her back. I told her she's likely to meet with success, since this is an excellent time for you Geminis to gain an advantage in pretty much any kind of game you're playing.



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